Another Stories of Fanny Widiyanti

Sore ini Aku menjalani rutinitas shalat Ashar seperti biasanya Bukan karena terpaksa atau sudah terbiasa Tapi karena aku merasa butuh! Ya, aku butuh waktu yang istimewa antara aku dan Dia, Sang Pencipta Aku butuh Dia untuk mendengarkan segala keluh kesahku Aku butuh Dia untuk menguatkan setiap langkahku Sehabis shalat, aku berdzikir dan membaca doa-doa yang ada di "buku hitam" Buku hitam dalam arti harfiah, karena sampulnya berwarna hitam Aku terbiasa membaca terjemahan dari setiap doa yang aku baca Agar aku tidak sekedar berkomat-kamit dengan bahasa Arab yang jujur saja tidak aku kuasai Tetapi aku paham makna dari setiap doa yang aku ucapkan Entah mengapa Aku sedikit merasa tersentak ketika membaca terjemahan dari 2 buah doa Kedua doa itu sudah sejak lama aku baca sehabis shalat Sudah menjadi rutinitas, dan aku hafal Tapi baru tadi sore, aku benar-benar menyadari maksud dari doa itu "Ya Allah, semoga Engkau merelakan aku dengan ketatapan-Mu. Berkahilah aku pada a...

Success is sweet and sweeter if long delayed and gotten through many struggles and defeats So, you have no reason to give up, fanny! FIGHTING!!!

Tuhan... Tolong jangan biarkan aku memulai sesuatu yang tidak akan sanggup aku akhiri Karena terkadang ada hati yang harus merajam doa Karena ada logika yang harus bersemayam dalam setiap derap ilusi Tuhan... Aku ikhlaskan Engkau menghapus harapanku yang semu Aku pasrahkan doa di kala bertabur senja Aku yakinkan diri bahwa Engkaulah Sang Maha Tahu Aku berlutut menyibakkan segala harga mati dari tangisan yang entah mengapa Tuhan... Jikalau merahnya mampu menghalau ragu, Maka izinkan dia berbaur dalam setiap serpihan sujud Dan jikalau jingganya mampu menepis segala palsu, Maka tunjukkan jalan kembali atas segala yang tak pasti Tuhan... Ini kuasa-Mu kan? =)

I`m totally exhausted. I know I`ve spent too much energy for nothing #headbanging The only one thing that keep running in my head is, Hey Moron. Look at the calendar, and you`ll find how many days you`ve passed with no progress on your thesis! In fact, I just feel like a loser ! Especially when I heard about my friends who already graduated has worked Oh, bloody hell ! Look at them, fanny... They moved on. They created their own life. I know very well. Everybody has their own ways. Everybody has their own destiny. And everything`s gonna happen at the right time. But still, the question is: Why don`t` you try harder, fanny? What the hell is going on with you? Where is your bloody damn consistency? You`ve been walking through the sharpest cobblestone, fanny. And there is NO REASON for you to give up ! Do me a favor. It`s just a few steps more, fanny... Please. Don`t troubled your mind with unnecessary thoughts. Stay focus. No matter what will happen, just do your best ! 30 Juni ...

This afternoon, I ate my fried chicken while watching The Oprah Winfrey show on Metro TV. Love the slogan: LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE =) Surprisingly, the topic they were discussed about is exactly the same like I thought in last few days. Yes, it`s about cheating. Oprah invited three women who had been cheated by their husbands. Their stories was very unique. It has different complexities, different challenges, and also different ways to be solved. Being in a relationship (especially) marriage is NOT easy. I mean it ! Cheating. Affair. Cruelness. I thought that`s the common terms in marriage. The question is, why? How could this happen into a woman`s life, when she had already sacrificed her whole life to her family? For God sake, it doesn`t fair at all ! I have to admit that those three women are so fascinating. They kept their chin up, and strong enough to mend the pieces of their broken heart. They didn`t dwell in grieve. They kept aside their perturbing thought about those cala...